I know very few middle aged men of meager wealth that are passionate about anything except family, religion or work. Mine is dying hard, although I’m doing my best to imagine that is not. It’s not like I’m considering buying a Honda Accord or a Diesel Truck. It’s just that a Honda Accord can be a very sensible, affordable and fun to drive vehicle. A quad cab diesel truck would really help me with some business ventures and yet still enable me to move family around.
My car life is in a coma. Family in Japan sent me mega ZN6 porno and I haven’t masturbated with it yet. I haven’t even pulled the cover back. My affordable, and practical plan to build a cheap, LHD, AWD Turbo four seater has not progressed because it involves me spending time in the barn an engine and fabricating things (even the thought of simple things like an exhaust… exhuasts me). And, when I sat down and added up what things were actually going to cost I realized that I might as well buy myself a GD STi. It would be more expensive, but I wouldn’t be creating some abomination that would sell next year for exactly what I paid for it, minus a couple hundred hours labour and $5000 worth of parts.
So what it amounts to in the end, is I wish I never sold my AE86. Not because I want the car back, or because I sold it for too little money… but because it at least was something that I could be excited about. Something dumb and irrational. A mistake that I had made and was living with.
Now I feel too smart and too old. Now my wife’s naggings have finally taken their toll. Now that sum in the bank account is a total that should only get bigger except for things like swimming lessons and life insurance. If I return to a fun car life, it will be something of a very different flavour.
Bugeyes are ugly. I hate you.